Hey, just a quick movie update:
Have you ever seen the film 'Perfect Man' with Hilary Duff? I know, I know, it's been like 6 years since it came out (and BTW since then it's still on my shelf) , and it's pretty cheesy, the acting isn't too brilliant and so on, but it's got something very special and important to me. It's kinda our family's little insider's movie. Watch it, and, if you read my last posts, will understand why I love it so much.
Oh, and by the way, for those who celebrate it, Happy Easter!
Since Monday, I won't have any I-net access for a week so bare with me.
G.
Friday, March 26, 2010
Monday, March 22, 2010
Explanation post
What's up everybody? I know I said I'll post something new on the weekend, and I did write it, but when I finished, it got deleted. So I was mad at myself and all electronic objects, that I didn't want to rewrite it. Sue me.
Now, let's go back to my tragical real-life story. I know I'm probably being too dramatic, but whatever. So, the reason, why I may not and plan not to stay here, at the end of the world, is that, I'm planning to attend an entrance examination at a ballet boarding school 350km away from my current residence. But that's not everything. I'm not quite sure, if that's really what I should do. The thing is, my mom doesn't talk to my dad almost anymore,and nobody knows, if that will end up by a divorce or continue for the next decade or so. But if, what is more possible, if you ask me, then it would be hard for us, because me and my sister would stay with our mom, and my sister has got only two more years of school to go, so it wouldn't be too smart, if we'd make her move. But my mom also looks for a better job, and if us three end up alone, we'll have to move. And if you add my possible passing to that boarding school, I'd leave my mom and sis alone. And that's just wrong. Plus, I don't even know, if I really want to pass. I mean, I want to, but it just seems like a dream behind a foggy ice curtain. I see it, but it's blurry and I know I shouldn't touch it. Like an animal going into an other's habitat. Just wrong...
And leaving my mom seems impossible for me. She planned all our relocations, just to give me and my sister a better life after school. And now, do I want to kinda destroy it? She just doesn't deserve it. I wish I'd be five again, not have any worries and let my parents plan my life, because they know what's best for me. At least I think they did.
Seriously, I hate such unknown situations, where I have no idea what to do, because I don't know, what may how end up. If that's what life's all about, then I have no idea what it's useful for.
Greets,
Giuliana
Now, let's go back to my tragical real-life story. I know I'm probably being too dramatic, but whatever. So, the reason, why I may not and plan not to stay here, at the end of the world, is that, I'm planning to attend an entrance examination at a ballet boarding school 350km away from my current residence. But that's not everything. I'm not quite sure, if that's really what I should do. The thing is, my mom doesn't talk to my dad almost anymore,and nobody knows, if that will end up by a divorce or continue for the next decade or so. But if, what is more possible, if you ask me, then it would be hard for us, because me and my sister would stay with our mom, and my sister has got only two more years of school to go, so it wouldn't be too smart, if we'd make her move. But my mom also looks for a better job, and if us three end up alone, we'll have to move. And if you add my possible passing to that boarding school, I'd leave my mom and sis alone. And that's just wrong. Plus, I don't even know, if I really want to pass. I mean, I want to, but it just seems like a dream behind a foggy ice curtain. I see it, but it's blurry and I know I shouldn't touch it. Like an animal going into an other's habitat. Just wrong...
And leaving my mom seems impossible for me. She planned all our relocations, just to give me and my sister a better life after school. And now, do I want to kinda destroy it? She just doesn't deserve it. I wish I'd be five again, not have any worries and let my parents plan my life, because they know what's best for me. At least I think they did.
Seriously, I hate such unknown situations, where I have no idea what to do, because I don't know, what may how end up. If that's what life's all about, then I have no idea what it's useful for.
Greets,
Giuliana
Thursday, March 18, 2010
Update: the story continues
Hey... no readers! Whatever. Someone will read this someday.
I'm sorry, about not keeping the promise and updating, when we came back. I'll explain everything in further posts. So... you want to hear/read the next part of my hometown: europe experience? Well here it goes:
We had Sweden, Germany #1, ... yeah. So, I finished the elementary school (4th grade), and to make that moment useful, we moved. Big shocker, right? The destination of our temporary-accomondation was Bavaria (use google-maps, if you don't where that is). Now, when I'm looking back to that time, I mostly remember the smell of cows, the sight of corn fields, the non- German-sounding dialect, and that it was far to every bigger city. When I see/hear/smell one of those things now, it makes me wanna puke. I guess you get the idea. So after one year of torture, we moved. Don't I write that word a bit too often? Can be. And where was our next relocation? My parents must have thought, that we lived already in too many places, because they decided to move back to Germany's spot#1. When you're finished laughing, read on. So, 6th grade, I went to the school, where my former BFF was going to. It's a math-science school, but they have an intensive English class, so I liked that. I just have to handle physics somehow =).
Right now, I'm in the 8th grade of still the same (!) school, but it may change really soon.
I'll explain that next time, most probably tomorrow or on the week-end.
Oh, BTW let my know in the comment section what you think about my so-far online journal!
See ya next time
I'm sorry, about not keeping the promise and updating, when we came back. I'll explain everything in further posts. So... you want to hear/read the next part of my hometown: europe experience? Well here it goes:
We had Sweden, Germany #1, ... yeah. So, I finished the elementary school (4th grade), and to make that moment useful, we moved. Big shocker, right? The destination of our temporary-accomondation was Bavaria (use google-maps, if you don't where that is). Now, when I'm looking back to that time, I mostly remember the smell of cows, the sight of corn fields, the non- German-sounding dialect, and that it was far to every bigger city. When I see/hear/smell one of those things now, it makes me wanna puke. I guess you get the idea. So after one year of torture, we moved. Don't I write that word a bit too often? Can be. And where was our next relocation? My parents must have thought, that we lived already in too many places, because they decided to move back to Germany's spot#1. When you're finished laughing, read on. So, 6th grade, I went to the school, where my former BFF was going to. It's a math-science school, but they have an intensive English class, so I liked that. I just have to handle physics somehow =).
Right now, I'm in the 8th grade of still the same (!) school, but it may change really soon.
I'll explain that next time, most probably tomorrow or on the week-end.
Oh, BTW let my know in the comment section what you think about my so-far online journal!
See ya next time
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